| all i want for xmas. |
[26 Dec 2009|03:35am] |
''Maybe our mistakes are what make our fate. Without them, what would shape our lives?
Perhaps if we never veered off course, we wouldn’t fall in love, or have babies, or be who we are.
After all, seasons change. So do cities. People come into your life and people go.
But it’s comforting to know the ones you love are always in your heart.
And if you’re very lucky, a plane ride away.''
and what i know is that... no matter how many new people i meet along the way, how easy they are to hang out with, how many places I go, at the end of the day, i just want to be with the person who makes me laugh the most. the person who is around giving the best support even before seeing me scratching my forehead like a gan-jiong spider. the person who wouldn't judge me from the 1001th mistakes i've made and who understands why i do, what i do.
and for the person who loves me the most,
i'm glad that i found you (:
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| happily merrily christmas! |
[26 Dec 2009|02:40am] |
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| have you learn? |
[21 Dec 2009|11:13am] |
one of the worst feelings in the world is to feel like you have not learned much from your past mistakes. at this age, at twenty-two, sometimes you're inclined to think that you've been through so much, learned from it all, and you're finally ready for the world now. you look back on the way you thought you used to be, and go ahh hahh!, that was hard to go through, but it will never be me again, and you're really optimistic and feeling so accomplished and happy... and then something happens and you do something similar and it's just so... dejecting.
how did things end up like this again?
you don't know,
your heart sinks.
it's such a terrible feeling - to feel like you have wasted so much time in the past, and so much energy. it makes you wonder what you went through all that for and it makes you sigh at the possibility of having to do it over and over again in the future, making the same mistakes, feeling the same way, til you finally learn... if you learn at all.
i know the important thing is to keep moving on, because what else can you do, right.
but i'll be more wary about saying i've learned.
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| I have an issue. |
[18 Dec 2009|05:30pm] |
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why can't kids behave on the train?
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| what is "weekend"? |
[13 Dec 2009|06:19pm] |
i spent my first Sunday working my ___ off in the ward today.
more to come, I know :(
then soon before anybody realise, i will have had immunity to these.
because, a nurse only has OFF day, sleeping day, rest day.
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| interrupted sleep. |
[12 Dec 2009|11:20am] |
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i need to stop jumping outta bed thinking abt going to work when it's my OFF days!
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| patient education is important. |
[12 Dec 2009|02:14am] |
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| breathe in hard and think. |
[11 Dec 2009|03:50pm] |
patience is a virtue because it makes us better people. the definition of the word is to tolerate delay. this implies self control and forbearance as opposed to wanting what we want when we want it.
how many times have we jumped the gun and found out it it would have been better to tolerate delay or had self control?
what did we miss out on?
did we hurt someone because of lack of patience?
did our lives just change completely just because we couldn't control ourselves?
patience is not only a virtue but a necessity for a happy existence.
patience is a simple word but yet it means so much, so much to me. when thing goes wrong and problem arises, all i need was to be patience with it, to see and think through about my next move. instead, most of the time, i jump into conclusion. i know i have the habit of talking insensible stuff when i'm really upset/angry. and, i know, it shows no wisdom at all.
and, i need to change!
the first time i met the problem, i know i'm dead.
the second time, i know i'm so going to be chopped.
and the third time, on and on, i guessed, i'm not going to make it and everything is over.
that's it and i'm just a _____.
but now, today, i say, i need to conquer my myself!
in the midst of all these, i know this is training me to enlarge my capacity, to prepare me if similar problem arises, to help me grow to next level, to increase my faith and trust.
i know it will be tough to do it when situation just doesn't seems to turn for the better but i will just have be show some more patience and think harder.
you know, sometimes nursing is just about having that little bit more. and, we definitely can.
"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD,
thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope."
Jeremiah 29:11
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| what are you staying? |
[11 Dec 2009|12:40pm] |
it is funny when my collegues asked, "where is sengkang?!"
and, at least i know clementi, jurong, jookoon, and even tuas!
maybe secretly, i can be a singapore walking directory. LOL!
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[06 Dec 2009|05:08pm] |
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this is one of those days that we stay home, eat sticky rice, chips and watch man-utd.
so, after this not so long holiday, PRCP starts officially tmr!
in this month,
i found myself on my bed more than often and slept like a log - or worst.
i spent more time with mama papa and nuanua.
i deal with the most _________ lecturer in school, bomb the voicemail, mobile phones, emails.
i made use of my pharmacology textbook after the semesters in school.
i found greater use for my medical-surgical nursing textbook.
i met up with all the friends that had requested to see me (imo).
i had been participating actively in kickboxing and swimming.
i found a job, even before graduation.
last but not least,
i gained muscles but more fats.
so, 12 more weeks of work to go before grad trip.
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| Toyota Hybrid Synergy Drive Spot. |
[01 Dec 2009|12:08am] |
this video will make any singaporean happy.
an area to consider to be a better missy for my patients, would be having 2 pairs of everything!
ohh wells ohh wells... (in my dreams).
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| get motivated. woohoo! |
[30 Nov 2009|11:04pm] |
getting started is one thing but keep moving is another thing. whatever you do, there are always obstacles along the way that can hinder you from achieving success. if you dont have motivation, it's easy to get discouraged when you meet such obstacles. that's why motivation often makes the difference between winners and losers. winners are those who can go through challenges and difficulties thanks to their motivation. losers, on the other hand, are those who can't go through challenges and difficulties since they lack the necessary motivation.
now, the journey ahead of me is still long, but who knows... it might be enjoyable!
of course, i (not-so-secretly) know, there will be times when things aren't gna be good, but i will be able to endure such difficult times - in the best way that i could.
motivation will help me get started - like now! (or soon)
it helps you keep moving,
it helps you do more than others,
it makes the journey fun.
no wonder motivation plays an important role in everyone's journey to success.
so! you! get motivated now!
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| 数绵羊的夜晚。 |
[29 Nov 2009|04:02am] |
睡不着夜晚，
我想起了你。
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| oral antidiabetic agents. |
[24 Nov 2009|10:57pm] |
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i can't remember how i ace-d both my pharmacology modules.
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| a nurse nursing a nurse. |
[21 Nov 2009|11:46pm] |
Marie says,
"when you start to fall sick during holidays, it means you have reached the peak of nua-ness."
welcome to my nua-days.
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| so that's how we live our lives. |
[21 Nov 2009|07:41pm] |
no matter how deep and fatal the loss, no matter how important the thing that's stolen from us - that's snatched right out of our hands, even if we are left completely changed people with only the outer layer of skin from before.
we continue to play out our lives this way, in silence. we draw ever nearer to our allotted span of time, bidding it farewell as it trails off behind. repeating the endless deeds of everyday.
leaving behind a feeling of immeasurable emptiness.
we just gotta deal with it.
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| i'm not fated to swim. |
[19 Nov 2009|04:06pm] |
this morning, i was thrilled to see the sun and started packing.
but, my thrill didnt last long, the dark clouds came and i was back in bed.
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| toughen UP! |
[19 Nov 2009|12:06am] |
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“你” 真得很爱我。
我永远逃不过 “你" 的手掌心！
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| PRCP! |
[15 Nov 2009|11:35pm] |
i have been trying not to complain too much bout the past week, so here's the upside: i'm enjoying every minute of my holidays, meeting up with many people whom i had missed out during school and attachment, and going to sleep every night feeling happy.
anyway, back to planning of my first job, i had been to 3 interviews and gotten 4 offers. things are looking bright now, but it tortures me a lot on which discipline to go. given the right discipline to enter, it really does seem rather interesting and... more self-fulfilling. i had always assumed that i would move on to another aspect of nursing in a few years to come, but let's just concentrate and focus on the present.
which really begets the question, where am i going for my PRCP that's starting next month?
it's the perfect opportunity for me to test the waters in the government sector. two sides of a coin - i have got the chance to stay with my friends, stay in my comfort zone, eat my usual kopitiam, which before now i thought i was going to take, but i'm starting to get itchy fingers and am thinking of applying elsewhere.
how now brown cow?
i hope i receive some random calls tmr. i will be waiting (:
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| eat, pray, love. |
[15 Nov 2009|10:38pm] |
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"If I love you, you can have everything. You can have my time, my devotion, my ass, my money, my family, my dog, my dog's money, my dog's time -- everything. If I love you, I will carry for you all your pain, I will assume for you all your debts (in every definition of the word), I will protect you from your own insecurity, I will project upon you all sorts of good qualities that you have never actually cultivated in yourself and I will buy Christmas presents for your entire family. I will give you the sun and the rain, and if they are not available, I will give you a sun check and a rain check. I will give you all this and more, until I get so exhausted and depleted that the only way I can recover my energy is by becoming infatuated with someone else."
--Elizabeth Gilbert, "Eat, Pray, Love"
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